Vanessa Bryant opens up about grieving Kobe and Gianna in heartbreaking post

“I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over.”

It’s been just over two weeks since Kobe Bryant, his 13-year-old daughter Gianna and seven others were killed in a California helicopter crash. And understandably, it still doesn’t feel real for Kobe’s widow, Vanessa Bryant.

In the weeks since the tragic crash, Vanessa has shared tributes, videos and photos to honor the memories of Kobe and Gianna. Last week, she shared information about Gianna and Kobe’s celebration of life at Staples Center, but on Monday, Vanessa opened up about her grieving process.

Vanessa said that she was reluctant to share on Instagram what she’s been going through but decided to do so in case others experienced a similar loss. She expressed her disbelief and anger about the situation while, again, offering prayers for the families and victims of the crash.

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I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.

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She wrote:

I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.

Kobe and Vanessa were married in 2001. In addition to Vanessa, Kobe was survived by his daughters Natalia, Bianka and Capri.

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