Bubba Watson opens up on mental health struggles in new book: ‘Golf was killing me’

“Golf was killing me.”

Bubba Watson joined the PGA Tour in 2006. Four years later, he became a Tour winner at the 2010 Travelers Championship at TPC River Highlands. And when he drove down Magnolia Lane on Monday in 2012, he was not only a then three-time Tour winner but a new dad. Just a few days earlier, Watson and his wife, Angie, adopted their first child, Caleb.

Sunday afternoon, his back seat had another new passenger – a green jacket.

In four days, Watson went from a solid PGA Tour pro to a Masters champion and one of the biggest names in the sport. And two years later, after another triumph at Augusta National, cemented himself as a star.

But with that stardom, came hardship.

No longer could Watson stroll through Tour events without interviews, TV appearances, and everything else that came with a high world ranking. Everyone wanted a piece of him.

And as those pieces started to be cut off, so did Watson’s weight.

As the opening scene of his new book, “Up and Down,” depicts the Bagdad, Florida, native hopelessly standing on a scale realizing he’s down 30 pounds with no explanation from doctors as to why.

“Golf was killing me,” he writes.

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At that moment Watson understood he couldn’t do this by himself. He needed to open up to the people in his life, leaning on them for support. When the conversations started, so did his recovery.

The weight, slowly but surely, started to come back, and once Watson realized he was getting better decided to tell his story.

Throughout ‘Up and Down: Victories and Struggles in the Course of Life‘, the two-time major winner describes his incredibly important relationship with wife Angie, including how they met at the University of Georgia. His relationship with long-time caddie, Ted Scott, and how he clashed with both the media and other players on Tour.

“I chose to make golf and life fun again. To live the life I wanted, not the life people expected me to live. Somewhere along the way, I began to accept that there is a bit of a pattern that connects my life and my performance on the golf course,” said Watson. “My best playing didn’t come back until I regained control of the fear and anxieties that were clouding my mind.”

Hopefully, Watson’s story will not only allow other players to voice their struggles with mental health, anxiety, or any other battle their fighting, but the world.

When you open up to someone, more often than not, it results in a conversation rather than a monologue. Everyone is going through something.

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Lynch: Ignore the talk about ‘family’ — loyalty between PGA Tour players and caddies has its limits

In a sport where form is fleeting, every relationship is temporary.

As job security goes, PGA Tour caddies enjoy about as much of it as Kim Jong Un’s inner circle, and often alongside an equally capricious man with absolute authority. Only in the manner of their dismissal do caddies have an edge on the Pyongyang cognoscenti.

The attributes Tour players seek in a wingman are as personal as fingerprints. Some require only punctuality and an accurate yardage. Others need more — help reading putts or pulling clubs or being talked off a ledge. There are players who want a friend on the bag, or a proxy psychologist or simply someone to blame. Good caddies know what the boss wants and mold accordingly. And if they’re successful, they’ll gain a solid enough reputation to get another bag when he fires them.

“Not one of us would ever want a 9-to-5 job. We’re not built that way,” a veteran Tour looper told me. “I think caddies are quite an optimistic bunch. Our glass is always half-full. It depends on the player, obviously. We see them at their best and at their worst.”

The ever-shifting nature of player-caddie relationships was to the fore this week as two high-profile pros parted from their longtime sidekicks: Justin Thomas with Jimmy Johnson and Bubba Watson with Ted Scott. Each divorce has its particular motivating factors, from the straight-forward (grating personality differences) to the complex (disputes over a cut of the many bonuses now lavished on players). But whether a split was brewing or sudden — as when Tim Tucker left Bryson DeChambeau at the altar on the eve of the Rocket Mortgage Classic — it usually speaks to the prevailing circumstances of the player concerned.

Thomas was at pains to stress that he didn’t fire Johnson, who has been at his side since his rookie year in 2015. But good caddies are feral, with an innate sense of when it’s time to move on. Despite winning the Players Championship, Thomas had a disappointing year. That’s typically when a player thinks about a shake-up, which puts three constituencies in peril: swing coach, caddie and management.

Changing the latter is messy while dumping instructors entails a fresh start elsewhere. So you can see why so many caddies walk the plank. Thomas’s dad, Mike, is his swing coach and ain’t going anywhere. He also has good management. He had a fine caddie too, and still does. Thomas has lured Jim “Bones” Mackay out of TV, to which he had moved in 2017 after a 25-year run with Phil Mickelson. It’s an unsurprising call: Mackay is highly respected and one of the rare caddies whose counsel can be said to make players better.

The Watson-Scott split might not be as easily navigated with a new hire. Scott was on Watson’s bag for 15 years, 12 PGA Tour wins and two Masters. But Watson was frequently criticized for petulant outbursts directed at his caddie, who defended his boss every time. This parting, which surprised most observers, says something about Watson, but in a positive sense.

For most of his time as a Tour star, Watson has seemed ill at ease, in public, over the ball and in his own skin. Scott was as much crutch as caddie, someone who could help a quirky man navigate his peculiarities.

Watson admitted as much in a social media post announcing the news, writing: “Teddy deserves more credit than anyone can imagine for our success on the golf course, but I am just as grateful for his friendship and the way he has helped me grow as a person.”

The Bubba we have seen in 2021 appears changed. He showed up in Ohio to cheer the U.S. team at the Solheim Cup. He was the first player to support Matt Wolff when the young star revealed his mental health struggle, and spoke openly about his own issues. He is more comfortable with his idiosyncrasies, more self-aware about his shortcomings, more conscious of the power to do good that comes with a high profile.

In short, Watson is better equipped for life without Scott than might have been thought possible even recently. Still not an easy player to match with a caddie, but a lot easier than he used to be.

For all of the Hallmark sentiments peddled about friendships and “family” on Tour, the dynamic between player and caddie is no less precarious than any other employment contract, a reality that Johnson and Scott will have long understood. In a sport where form is fleeting, every relationship is temporary. Loyalty has its limits, on both sides.

A couple of years back, I chatted at TPC Sawgrass with the caddie for a popular major champion. His player was still relevant, money was coming in, and they were solid pals. Life was good for this Sherpa, who had been on the professional circuit for more than 20 years. Still, he cheerfully shared updates on an investment that, if it came to fruition, would net him a handsome profit.

“What happens if that ship comes in?” I asked him.

The caddie nodded in the direction of his employer. “Then he can carry his own f—-ing bag,” he said with a laugh.

Bubba Watson, caddie Ted Scott split up ‘after 15 incredible years’

Caddie Ted Scott was on the bag for each of Bubba Watson’s 12 PGA Tour title, but discussions about golf and life led to a parting of ways.

They’re still friends, Bubba Watson insists, but on Thursday night the booming lefty announced he and long-time caddie Ted Scott were parting ways.

Watson called it an “incredible 15 years together” in a social media post. Watson joined the PGA Tour in 2006 and has 12 victories, including the 2012 and 2014 Masters. Scott was on the bag for all of them.

It was the second big player/caddie split of the day, as a Golf Channel report earlier Thursday said Jim “Bones” Mackay accepted a full-time gig to work for Justin Thomas.

As for the Watson/Scott split, Bubba wrote that it only came about after some “deep talks” not only about golf but life.

Watson said, “Teddy deserves more credit than anyone can imagine for our success on the golf course” and called it a “blessing and privilege” to have him there all these years.

Watson has been known for swinging a pink Ping driver, but golf fans also know he and Scott share an affinity for footwear, be it Watson’s shoes or Scott’s socks. No word yet on who Watson plans to replace him with or what Scott intends to do next.

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Bubba Watson wears his G/FORE men’s checkered disruptor golf shoes while his caddie wears Anthony Davis socks during the final round of the 2021 Zurich Classic of New Orleans at TPC Louisiana. Photo by Stephen Lew-USA TODAY Sports

Forward Press podcast: Bubba Watson’s caddie, Ted Scott, talks November Masters, life on the bag

Bubba Watson’s caddie, Ted Scott, discusses being Watson’s caddie, foosball, what we’ll probably see at a November Masters and much more.

Welcome to episode 66 of Forward Press, a weekly podcast from your friends at Golfweek.

In this edition of Forward Press, Golfweek’s David Dusek chats with Bubba Watson’s caddie, Ted Scott, about what life is like being Watson’s caddie, why it all goes back to foosball, what we’ll probably see at a November Masters and much more.

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